Wednesday, November 11, 2009

a dissapointment..

Nick has stood by me through many a disappointment in the last 3 1/2 years of our lives. He has had to be my leader and rock through many a trial and hopeless times for me. Today I have felt that burden for him. its weird to be on the other end. I hope I do as well for him as he always does for me.

The last 4 months we have been going through an interview process with WillowCreek Community Church in South Barrington, Illinois. We met some incredible people, fell in love with the amazing church and all it does, the job seemed Absolutely perfect. Nick went up there twice for in house interviews, we looked at places to live, and we were pursued by one of the biggest and most prestigious churches in our time. Today we found out that we are not the right fit for this position.

Nick wanted it so bad. I wanted it so bad. I truly felt like the Lord was going to take us on an adventure. To be in that church would have been such a blessing, we knew it was going to be hard, but we knew that we could do it.

I, we know that the Lord has only something better laid out for us, but we are just so dissapointed. The process taught us SO many things, and I am afraid that after this we will be gaurding our hearts a little more than we had in the past. A sweet and dear friend of mine told me to read Lamentations 3, All of it she said, and so tonight I did. And this is what I will continue to rest in for our little family. Knowing that the Lord is sovereign and is working on taking care of us right now..

3:18 So I say, "My splendor is gone and all that I had hoped form the Lord." I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's Great Love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; Therefore I will wait for Him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him. it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

you should go read the whole was exactly what I needed.

Love you all!


  1. rachel,

    you are an inspiration and i know that you will help Nick through this disappointment. i have cried, stomped my feet and will never understand the logic here, but I know that God will provide and take care and i really believe He will make it all better - just like we make our kids "boo-boo's " all better - our Father will make this better than anything we can imagine. I'm believing!!!!!! love you so much - the mama!

  2. Rachel,

    God has bigger plans for you and Nick! We lived in Chicago away from family when Katie was born and it was hard. It seemed like it would be so easy, but we really missed our family and they missed a lot of Katie's early stages. Even though you are dissapointed now, the plans God has for you all are awesome and he is not quite ready for you all to leave Texas!